[PSL -- For Superchill] -- Confrontation
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thunderingpeace[It had been a week since that time in Kacchan's apartment. A week since the kiss, a week since they'd had breakfast together, and a week since they parted on an almost too-casual note, Izuku walking out the door ahead of his friend so as not to embarrass them both.
Also, to...well. To give Kacchan some room. Some breathing space.
Because they weren't anything, not really. Friends? Definitely. Lovers? Possibly someday. They'd definitely enjoyed kissing each other, and spooned each other when they slept for fuck's sake. Izuku had wanted something more, but Kacchan needed time, and he was perfectly willing to give him time.
No. Really. Don't give him that look. Just because he'd had a rocking dumpster fire of a romantic life before this didn't mean that he was going to make this go in flames because of his own awkwardness and thirst.
And then...well. One thing led to another.
Specifically, his mother happened. She'd collapsed one day while at work -- after Izuku graduated, she'd taken to working again in order to fill the gaps left by her son's absence, and her own loneliness -- and he'd left immediately to go and see her.
Her heart was weak. They weren't sure if it was her weight, the anxiety of having her son out of the house and her husband overseas, a deeper issue, or a combination of all of them, but couldn't do as much as she used to. She needed help.
Izuku had jumped at the chance. Taken strange hours -- mostly graveyard shift -- and had to cancel his social plans so that he could be with his mother during the day, work at night, and get what little sleep he could before he had to wake up and do it all over again.
This went on for a week.
He hadn't texted or called anyone. He hadn't had the time. He had to talk to his superiors to switch his hours, he had to commisserate with the doctor about his mother's medications and how long she would need to be supervised before she could start living independently again (his father hadn't even been contacted -- but Izuku had enough issues with his father, and really didn't want to think about him right now), had to start putting aside money for both her rent and his, had to move himself into his old room with the too-tiny, uncomfortable bed and always made sure to keep the door open in case she needed him.
He was a wreck.
His eyes were sunken in, he'd only eaten the bare minimum that he needed to function, and while coffee and energy drinks got him through his shift with minimal effort, he knew he wasn't at the top of his game. He'd planned on telling someone, really, but he didn't want to make anyone worry until he was settled, and by the time things started rolling he was so caught up in the wave that he couldn't stop.
He shook when he woke up, some days, and had to force himself to stop the exhausted tremors. His two off-days a week were the only days when he could sleep, but it was restless and short, so he spent his time working out or taking extra hours at the agency just to fill the time.
He missed everyone.
Most of all, he missed Kacchan.]
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Date: 2018-08-17 04:36 am (UTC)Instead, he just had to voice the fact that Izuku was corny out loud, didn't he?
...
Okay, let's not mince words. Deep down in his squishy, nerdy heart, he was made of pure warm corn chowder, the kind of that Western mothers made when their children were sick and needed comfort on their worst days. Izuku had, without irony, given a girlfriend a candlelight dinner on a veranda with soft music and clumsy, shy slow dancing. This wasn't going to be the last time he was called this, and he knew it.
That didn't stop him from averting his eyes a little, that usual Izuku awkwardness seeping in.]
Yeah...I guess it is a little, huh? But romance is always a little corny when you think about it, right?
[Though was Kacchan even romantic? No, probably not. What did he define as romantic, anyway? Cuddling together? Eating together?
He would have to do research, because mark his words, Izuku Midoriya would find out what made Kacchan tick, and sweep him off his feet. Somehow.
But that was an endeavor for another day.]
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Date: 2018-08-17 07:27 am (UTC)And of course... Bakugou doesnt' mean corny in a bad way. Not anymore. He just doesn't know how to voice the rest of it- because it's true. What the hell is romance? What the hell is anything sweet and cute and romantic? Bakugou would cringe (okay more like maybe blow up) at the thought- but maybe slowly, Deku can teach him. ]
Uh yeah. I guess.
[He honestly has no idea. Cuddling seems ridiculous- though they've already done it enough. And eating together is alright. He likes it. Is that considered romantic?]
Guess you can tell your mom we're for real dating now. She'd probably be happy about that... right?
[He lets a little bit of that insecurity seep through. ]
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Date: 2018-08-17 07:42 am (UTC)All he could do was try to dispel it, even if it took a thousand lifetimes.
Izuku was dating Bakugou Katsuki. He was nothing if not patient.]
Oh, trust me, she was over the moon when she teased me about it this morning.
[Hell, he was over the moon about it. He leaned his head against Kacchan's chest, just a little, letting out a small hum.
He could actually do this now whenever he wanted. He could use Kacchan's warm chest like a pillow and lean against it.
Hell. Yeah.]
Do you want to tell anyone else about this, or keep it private for now?
[Would he want to tell Kirishima about this? His parents?]
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Date: 2018-08-19 01:54 pm (UTC)[He snorts softly, then pauses, furrowing his eyebrows.]
Oh. I think she was teasing me about it too and I just didn't fucking realize. Your mom is sneaky. But at least in good spirits, right?
[Which is really good for right now. With the two of them taking care of her, she'll do a lot better in no time. So will Deku, he hopes. Bakugou never wants to see him look at worn down and sleep deprived as he did when he first got here.
Right now it seems Deku is taking advantage of as much cuddling as he possibly can. Bakugou doesn't stop him]
Tell anyone? What, like a fucking announcement? No way. It's none of their business.
[Is that too harsh? He has no idea. How is this shit supposed to work? ]
We can tell your mom- well, she already knows. Everyone else is just gonna make a big damn deal about it and I don't want that shit to get in the way of our hero duties. You know how it's gonna be. Fuckin' all over TV.
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Date: 2018-08-19 08:18 pm (UTC)[Please don't be about sex. Please don't be about sex. Izuku would give Kacchan the entirety of his All Might collection if his mother didn't ask him about sex.]
I'm curious.
[And well, no, he hadn't planned an announcement, but...yeah, he was probably right about that. Even if only Izuku's close friends knew, there was no telling how quickly others would know, and...
...Well, that at least told Izuku what he thought about PDA. Was he really surprised by this, though? Kacchan was as private as they came, and considering his closest circle of friends...
If Kirishima knew, he'd carry that secret to the grave. At least until Mina managed to get it out of him; that woman should have been an interrogation hero with how well she could just coax secrets out of people.
Note to self: Tell the group chat that Kacchan "wanted to take it slow" and that all conversations about the subject would be tabled. If Kacchan explicitly didn't want anyone else to know, then he wasn't about to go behind his back, no matter how excited Izuku was.]
I wasn't exactly thinking of an announcement, Kacchan. But let's just keep it between us for now.
[Not being able to hold hands in public was a small price to pay to prevent the media circus that would inevitably break out if they did.
Izuku clung just a touch tighter.]
Honestly, so long as you're happy, I'm happy.
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Date: 2018-08-21 02:39 am (UTC)[ Does Deku want to tell his friends? Bakugou realizes that he probably does. Which... it's his right to, isn't it? It should be, but it's also kind of complicated.
Bakugou is definitely private. Of course he is, he's never really done things any other way.
Kissing in public???? Holding hands... even not in public?? Well okay, he supposes they've done the latter already, but still. It's something he probably has to ease into. ]
Are you sure about that? I mean... I guess you can tell your friends. Not all of them. Just the closest ones. Wait, who are you closest to? Is it still Round Face, Glasses, and Icyhot?
[Look, he can use their names, but all his brain power is being diverted to this relationship thing, and the way Deku is trying to squeeze him as tight as he can.]
I'm... yeah, I'm happy. Course I am. Wouldn't be with your scrawny ass if I wasn't. It's just... really fucking weird. And new. Not that I can't handle it, it's just different.
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Date: 2018-08-21 03:05 am (UTC)Now he was going to think about him and Kacchan in bed together, with his hand clamped tightly over his mouth......
Ahem.
That blush was...it sure was something huh?
Also he might have choked. A little.]
A-ah...um. Yeah. Loud. I guess I was that. Er. Sorry about that.
[Well at least he could say that his mother was okay with him being an adult man with adult man relationships.
He coughed again.]
Yeah...still them. And...thank you.
[for being happy, letting him talk to his friends about this, or being oblivious enough to not know what his mother meant right away? The world will never know.]
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Date: 2018-08-24 12:10 am (UTC)[There's too much blushing. So much blushing. Look, deep down Bakugou is a good boy too. A good, respectable???? boy? Okay, he likes to follow the rules and he certainly doesn't want to do things in front of mothers!
Thank fuck he got them to stop before they went any further.]
Don't say sorry. I mean... I liked it, just... not here. In the kitchen.
[Maybe in Deku's room? But his mom would still be in the house.
Are they gonna wait till they can go back to his place? Well... bakugou is honestly okay with that, actually. It'll give him more time, because he sure as hell doesn't know the first thing about sex and at his age that's kind of embarrassing.
Not that he's embarrassed! Fuck that! He's a Pro-Hero, damn it. He's had plenty of other things to do.]
Just tell them to keep their mouths shut about it. If it gets out, I'll know it was them and I'll blast the shit out of them so they better know that, too.
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Date: 2018-08-24 02:26 am (UTC)Failed. Horribly.]
You mean you're not?!
[You know, he would have been fine just dropping it, but nooooo, now he was thinking about it even more. With a statement as loaded as: "I liked it, but not in the kitchen," a man's brain can only go one direction, and that direction was deep, deep within the Earth's crust.
(Okay, maybe that was just Izuku's brain.)
Also, the temptation to say something sly and sex-charged like, "Ohh, would you prefer it if we were in my bedroom then?" was too great, and Kacchan had better thank every star that exists that he was far too awkward to try that kind of seduction right now.]
And I don't blame you. H-haha...hot implements and knives don't...exactly make for a fun time.
[Instead he said stupid shit like that. Time to backpedal.]
N-not like I've done it in a kitchen or anything before! I mean that's...that's unsanitary, right? I mean, we eat in there!
[Though the thought of Kacchan in nothing but an apron is pretty appealing. Just working on food, and then turning to look at him, hip cocked and grin salacious--
IZUKU MIDORIYA, STOP THIS RIGHT NOW.
Someone save him. He just wants to die right now. The more he talks, the redder his face is getting.]
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Date: 2018-08-26 05:26 am (UTC)Bakugou would wring his neck if he wasn't so into him right now. ]
I'm trying not to, shitty nerd!
[But he's failing too, and he has to pull himself away from Deku. Too much closeness, too new of a... relationship thing. Way too much mom in the house and yeah. The fucking kitchen.]
Hot.. implements and knives? Fucking Christ, Deku!
[This is getting more and more awkward by the second and Bakugou can't take it anymore]
It's not just unsanitary, but why the fuck would you even want....
[He starts, then stops and glances at the kitchen counter because hell yeah, it would actually be pretty fucking hot to get Deku up there and kiss him hard, grind against him a little.
FUCK. ]
Put the rest of the goddamn groceries away! I'm going to take a shower! And then we're gonna have dinner and watch TV with your mom!
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Date: 2018-08-26 06:04 am (UTC)He was going to stick his head in a freezer. Or just. Think of anything that could derail this.
All Might naked.
...Now he's just imagining Kacchan dressed up in a sexy All Might outfit--GOD DAMN IT that's not supposed to make this situation hotter!
Uh. Uh. AIZAWA NAKED.
You know, those ropes could probably come to good u--OH FOR FUCK'S SAKE.
BRAIN. STOP. NOW.]
Kacchan, I didn't actually use anything like that! Oh my God! I wouldn't--I'm not into that kind of thing!
[Deku, stop talking before you start actually talking about what you're into.
...And that includes following Kacchan's eyes to the counters. You know, if he could get up there, he could probably wrap his legs around Kacchan's waist just fine, maybe hold onto him and kiss him--
Okay maybe the kitchen was kind of hot. He preferred beds though. Or couches. Maybe his own couch?
Nah, the one at Kacchan's apartment was nicer, and more intimate. One of these days they had to make out on that couch again. Or just cuddle on it.
Wait. Wait, Kacchan said something. Groceries? Right! Putting groceries away. And a shower.
Izuku definitely needed a shower right now. A cold one.]
O-Okay! Yeah. That sounds good. Groceries, dinner, TV. Got it.
[Was this going to end without him potentially embarrassing himself?]
Uh...have fun in the shower?
[...nope.]
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Date: 2018-08-26 06:11 am (UTC)[He probably says far too loudly. Voices carry in this damn house! Oh god, now Inko is going to think... no, he doesn't even want to know what she'd think!
This is going to end right now.]
No, don't tell me. Don't even think about telling me.
Just gimme some space, okay?! We both need some space.
[What a disaster. They've been dating for five whole minutes and they already want to rip each other's clothes off all over the kitchen. This is years of pent of sexual frustration, isn't it.
Bakugou is going to suffer.]
I'm not gonna have any fun in the shower, idiot! I'm gonna wash off all of todays dirt and grime. It was a long and shitty day.
[He frowns, stomping away from Deku.......... then stops and stomps his way back over to him, grabbing him and kissing him before he turns and quickly leaves again, snatching up his bag with his change of clothes and heads straight for the bathroom so he can shower.]
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Date: 2018-08-26 07:09 am (UTC)Izuku really needed to dunk his head in a freezer. That kiss -- Kacchan's kiss, holy shit -- warmed him to his toes, and his cheeks heated with a gentle, persistent blush.
This was real life. They were boyfriends now.
Kacchan was his boyfriend.
Kacchan, the grouchy fireball that had been in his life since they were practically in diapers, was his confirmed significant other. And it felt like the most natural thing in the world.
And he was going to be staying here.
With him.
Their shifts were going to be opposite, sure, and they might not be able to see each other for very long, but...
Being able to kiss that man every single day? To cuddle him, even? To sleep next to him?
Yeah. Yeah, that was...that was good. Great. Wonderful.
Okay, no, it wasn't just good, great, or wonderful. It made his heart feel a hundred sizes too large and his entire body heat up and he'd never had a reaction like this to any of his past relationships before. Not Ochaco, and not the other girls he'd dated or slept with.
This was new, uncharted territory. Exciting territory.
And he'd be able to walk it with Kacchan by his side.]
I should...probably start on these groceries, huh?
[Even as he put the food away, Kacchan kept worming his way into his mind.]
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Date: 2018-08-26 07:24 am (UTC)Boyfriends.
Bakugou can hardly believe it.
They're the two most unlikely people in the entire world to be with each other like this!!! Or so he tries to fool himself, because that's absolutely not true. Apparently Ochaco knew. Does Kirishima know as well??? Oh god. Bakugou actually considers texting him to ask, but shower comes first. He really needs this shower.
He strips quickly, trying to ignore how hot he feels and he takes a damn cold shower just to compensate. He really needs it either way.
bakugou tries not to think of Deku while he showers, but its hard. Not in a sexual way, but just... in a contemplative way. This really is something else. It's new and important and.... wonderful? Bakugou can't help but feel exciting, but also a little worried and self conscious. He has no idea how to do this.
But.. Deku has always been there. Always behind his back, even when he didn't want him to be, helping him out. He's sure that's how this is gonna go down, too.
He finishes up quickly after that, changing into something far more comfortable, then dries his hair and heads back down to the kitchen to check up on how things are progressing without him. ]
Hey.
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Date: 2018-08-26 07:39 am (UTC)The cucumbers had almost made his brain spiral back into the Earth's crust, but with some good focus, he got back on track.]
Oh, hey. Have a good shower? I'm almost done here.
[Kacchan looked...more relaxed now. It was nice. His hair was still a little damp, glistening in the light in such a way that made him want to touch it a little. How was his hair always able to stay up like that, just in the way Kacchan liked it? If Izuku tried to 'tame the rat's nest', so to speak, it turned into a mess of curls, and when he got out of the shower, he tended to look like a wet poodle.
He didn't give in to that temptation, though. Instead he turned towards Kacchan, smiling a bit.
That space was good. Gave him time to think. Calmed down his hormones.
...Okay, so sticking his head in the freezer for a few seconds did, in fact, help a lot more than he thought it did.]
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Date: 2018-08-30 01:32 am (UTC)[He does feel more relaxed, but also a little more awkward? How does a person do boyfriend things?? Is it that much different from friend things?
He was never really a very good friend to Deku though, so... will he even be a good boyfriend? Damn it. ]
I can warm up some dinner. There's the stuff I got last night and the stuff I cooked this morning, we can have a little of everything if you wanna just do that.
The stuff I cooked is probably more healthy than the takout dumplings I got last night, so that would be better for you mother, but we don't wanna let the dumplings go to waste either.
[Yeah he's definitely less horny. More focused. Just trying to figure out what the next step is. Really, though, he just feels like a goddamn teenager all over again.]
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Date: 2018-08-30 11:21 am (UTC)[Kacchan feels like a teenager? If he feels like a teenager in this case, then Izuku might as well be his middle school self again, because this entire situation is almost like writing a novel in a language he didn't speak.
It wasn't...as though he hadn't been in relationships before. If anything, that was why he was so apprehensive. How many failed relationships had he been in at this point? Enough. And they had all been with women, who were all far easier to get along with than Kacchan was on his best day.
Would he mess this up?
He already felt out of his depth and it had only been less than an hour. He was ready to jump in with both feet, but then once the situation hit him everything crashed on him like a stack of bricks.
Wonderful.]
Besides, considering my eating habits lately, I could probably use a little bit of unhealthy right now.
[An awkward attempt at a joke, but it kept things light.]
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Date: 2018-09-17 11:12 am (UTC)[Now he feels kind of awkward, unlike they've been since reconnecting. Hell, he didn't even feel this awkward when he had his gay awakening in the middle of the grocery store and that was really something.
Damn it.
This has to stop.
He doesn't want things to get weird on them now, but there's so much riding on this, He's sure Deku is nervous too. But this realization shouldn't make things break down. It should make things easier, if anything... right?]
Okay, look. This is stupid. We're not gonna act like fucking kids about this. We're fucking adults and we decided we're gonna do this thing together, so.... stop being awkward.
[As if its that easy, sure.]
I mean, not just you- me, too.
We've known each other since we were born, pretty much, right? So we're just gonna do the same shit we always do.
Except with more kissing and stuff..... But not in front of your mom.
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Date: 2018-09-21 03:20 am (UTC)Like, yeah. This was weird. It was Kacchan, and it was far beyond anything he'd ever done with another guy, but this was also Kacchan, the man who'd had to deal with the sobbing aftermath of his attempts to watch a horror movie behind his mother's back to impress the other kids who made fun of him when he was three. He'd seen him in far weirder states than in mid-arousal for goodness' sake.
Or in the midst of, as Kacchan so eloquently put it, 'kissing and stuff'.
He couldn't help but blush at the 'not in front of your Mom' comment, though.]
I--I wouldn't do something like that in front of Mom! That's just--No.
[A pause. His posture was more relaxed, at least; shoulders fluid and nowhere near as tense and squared as they were earlier.]
And uh. Thanks. For everything.
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Date: 2018-09-22 11:36 am (UTC)He's definitely seen Deku in far weirder states. He's pretty sure they both have, at this point.]
I'm just saying. Feels weird doing it even just knowing she's around, like...
[He trails off, then glances toward the stairs.]
She could be listening right now. Watching us. Just waiting.
[Which might sound ridiculous, but it could be true! Anyway, it's not like they're going to have sex on the counter. He's not thinking about that anymore. But he does want to rid Deku of the awkwardness somehow, so despite his words, he goes over to him and leans in, pressing a soft kiss against his lips. Nothing intense, nothing more than a chaste kiss, because he likes Deku, and because he wants to.]
No problem. I'll cook another meal that'll last a couple days tomorrow, too, and make sure everything is set for when you go back to work.
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Date: 2018-09-23 05:21 am (UTC)Izuku shivered, and not in the good way. The thought of his mother hearing things, seeing things that he did in private made parts of him tighten that he didn't think could, and it was almost as mortifying as the notion of All Might walking in on them.
Oh God, he would never make out with Kacchan within even a single building as All Might for as long as he lived, because holy hell he didn't want to have to live with that mortification. It was bad enough that his mother knew he was a growing man with growing man needs--
--Oh God, what if All Might and his mother found them together? At the same time? Watching them with the judging, ever-sympathetic gazes of mortified but knowing parents?!
Welp, libido, it was nice knowing you, but you're not coming back until--well, a stiff breeze knocks against him, but the thought's still there.]
I-I don't think she would, but...b-best to be sure, yeah. To be fair, I never...uh, did anything like that here when I was with Ochaco....
[But he sure got close with Kacchan. It was almost as though he had pent-up affection that finally exploded the second their lips touched, or something.
That kiss sure was nice, though. It wasn't like the other ones -- the ones that burned his stomach and made his head spin. This just warmed his cheeks and his chest, as though he was drinking hot chocolate on a cold, wintry day.
And the fact that he instigated it? Made it all the sweeter.]
Do you want any help, or would you prefer I stay a couch potato until you're done?
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Date: 2018-09-23 05:37 am (UTC)He sort of makes a face at the mention of Ochaco, but he tries not to let it linger more than a second.
He wasn't a huge fan of it back then, but he acted like he didn't care. He had other things to worry about. But now? Well... it shouldn't matter now either. It was a relationship of long ago at this point, even if they're still friends. But he doesn't want to hear about that relationship, now that they're in one! ]
I kinda really don't wanna hear about what you did or didn't do with round face.
[Not that he's jealous or anything. Just a teeny tiny bit maybe. He knows it's stupid, because he's the one in Deku's kitchen now, kissing him. Being boyfriends with him.
Heh.
He smiles to himself as he starts putting all the food together, looking over at Deku.]
You can just hang out. Maybe get your mom ready for dinner?
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Date: 2018-09-23 06:07 am (UTC)Talking about his past relationships was a no-go.
Izuku was...well, sentimental. He still had trinkets and small things given to him from old lovers, even though the flame for them long since died out. He was one to hold onto the good times, and reminisce every now and then. His girlfriends hadn't liked it when he'd mentioned exes, either, come to think of it.
Really, he should have known better. Who wants to hear about what you did or didn't do with an ex?
He would have fallen down an overthinking worry-storm if Kacchan hadn't started smiling--
--which pierced his heart with the largest arrow that Cupid could find, seriously. A smiling Kacchan was a gorgeous Kacchan, and something so rare was enough to send his worries into a ditch and bury them whole.]
Yeah, I can do that.
[He hummed to himself, pressing against Kacchan just a little to hug him from behind, before kissing the back of his neck gently.]
Be back in a bit.
[He pulled away and was already heading up the stairs.]
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Date: 2018-09-23 06:18 am (UTC)He supposes he'd even kind of like that Deku is sentimental and he'd never want him to change that, or have an issue with old trinkets from past lovers. It's all a part of Deku's life.
Anyway, he's been in his life the longest, so it's all good.
The small kisses, the gentle back hugs.... yes, this is much better. Way less awkward. Just two guys being boyfriends and doing what they do. His gaze follows Deku to the stairs and then he's smiling again, getting to work in the kitchen.
This is good. It's really good. He's really fucking excited. ]