thunderingpeace: (Ugh. My spleen.)
[personal profile] thunderingpeace

Part One
Part Two

 

[It had been a week since that time in Kacchan's apartment. A week since the kiss, a week since they'd had breakfast together, and a week since they parted on an almost too-casual note, Izuku walking out the door ahead of his friend so as not to embarrass them both.

Also, to...well. To give Kacchan some room. Some breathing space.

Because they weren't anything, not really. Friends? Definitely. Lovers? Possibly someday. They'd definitely enjoyed kissing each other, and spooned each other when they slept for fuck's sake. Izuku had wanted something more, but Kacchan needed time, and he was perfectly willing to give him time.

No. Really. Don't give him that look. Just because he'd had a rocking dumpster fire of a romantic life before this didn't mean that he was going to make this go in flames because of his own awkwardness and thirst.

And then...well. One thing led to another. 

Specifically, his mother happened. She'd collapsed one day while at work -- after Izuku graduated, she'd taken to working again in order to fill the gaps left by her son's absence, and her own loneliness -- and he'd left immediately to go and see her. 

Her heart was weak. They weren't sure if it was her weight, the anxiety of having her son out of the house and her husband overseas, a deeper issue, or a combination of all of them, but couldn't do as much as she used to. She needed help.

Izuku had jumped at the chance. Taken strange hours -- mostly graveyard shift -- and had to cancel his social plans so that he could be with his mother during the day, work at night, and get what little sleep he could before he had to wake up and do it all over again.

This went on for a week.

He hadn't texted or called anyone. He hadn't had the time. He had to talk to his superiors to switch his hours, he had to commisserate with the doctor about his mother's medications and how long she would need to be supervised before she could start living independently again (his father hadn't even been contacted -- but Izuku had enough issues with his father, and really didn't want to think about him right now), had to start putting aside money for both her rent and his, had to move himself into his old room with the too-tiny, uncomfortable bed and always made sure to keep the door open in case she needed him.

He was a wreck.

His eyes were sunken in, he'd only eaten the bare minimum that he needed to function, and while coffee and energy drinks got him through his shift with minimal effort, he knew he wasn't at the top of his game. He'd planned on telling someone, really, but he didn't want to make anyone worry until he was settled, and by the time things started rolling he was so caught up in the wave that he couldn't stop.

He shook when he woke up, some days, and had to force himself to stop the exhausted tremors. His two off-days a week were the only days when he could sleep, but it was restless and short, so he spent his time working out or taking extra hours at the agency just to fill the time.

He missed everyone.

Most of all, he missed Kacchan.]

Date: 2018-08-05 05:37 am (UTC)
superchill: (uhh uh)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ Trust me, Deku. It's better he focuses on that, rather than the backdoor comment.

It's not that he doesn't know how it works, of course- he just hasn't considered the logistics of it yet. He'll figure it out when the time comes, of course, but right now that feels like a few steps ahead.

And that awkward laugh of Deku's... god, it's fucking cute. He doesn't know when he started thinking that instead of how he wanted to punch Deku for it, but... he's certain glad it's changed.

He opens his mouth to comment when Deku says it again. Twice.

He really doesn't realize it, does he? He can't, can he? Same train of thought as earlier. Bakugou's brain just seems to stall at the words. He's trying to keep his cool, but it's a lot for someone like him. ]


But we just... I mean... how do you even... ARGH. Fuck. How the fuck can you love me?? You only just told me you liked me!

Date: 2018-08-05 06:10 am (UTC)
superchill: (about that)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ That... is definitely a speech, alright.

It's different from Deku's usual muttering, because that's not what this is at all. It's a thought out, from the heart kind of speech and if Bakugou didn't know what to do with himself and this information before, he knows even less now.

He just stands there and gapes a little, taking it all in. ]


Holy shit.

[That's his first response, because what else can he say?

Deku loves him. Loves him. Bakugou is still trying to figure out this like thing and Deku already loves him. He needs to sit down. He backs up a little and moves to sit in one of the chairs by the table. Yeah, he's never felt this unsteady in his life.
]

But I hurt you so badly for so many fucking years.

[He's still thinking about that. How can he not? It went on for ages and he knows he hasn't even come close to making up for any of it.

But the scariest part is... some of what Deku says actually makes sense.
]

Date: 2018-08-05 07:12 am (UTC)
superchill: (not good)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ Bakugou looks at Deku when he sits there taking his hands in his. He looks tired, but determined and Bakugou isn't sure if this is the right time for all of this, but... when else would be the right time if not now?

He has no fucking clue what to think anymore.

He feels like he was that asshole for a lot longer than the beginning of their first year. He still feels like an asshole most of the time, though he knows he's trying to do better. It's not something he can forget easily, nor should he want to, he knows that.

And all this time, Deku has had a crush on him. All this time, Bakugou held on so tightly to his pride that he never let himself see any of this.

All this time, and maybe Bakugou could have felt the same way.

Well, he does now. Well. Mostly. He's still trying to work through the liking Deku part, but here Deku is, telling him he loves him. That he loves who he is now.

That he's the only one Deku ever really wanted. So that's why Ochaco broke up with him all those years ago. Oh.]


I... don't even know what the fuck to say.

[This is supposed to be a good thing, isn't it? It just feels so damn odd to him. It's such a shift from what he's used to and it's throwing him off. He's annoyed because he doesn't like being thrown off, especially when he can't figure how to work around it. But this is different than a skill, or trying to figure out the enemy. This is dealing with something he doesn't have a damn clue about.]

Date: 2018-08-05 07:45 am (UTC)
superchill: (fine)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ It feels like such a relief when Deku squeezes his hands and tells him he doesn't have to say anything.

He has no idea how to even follow up with anything after that. But he does remember it. He tucks every last word away so he can think about it- not agonize over it, just think. ]


I do?

[He shows Deku that he cares? Well.... okay, yeah- he hopes he does. But he wasn't sure if he was actually doing it, or if he was still just being an asshole to Deku like he always had been. Bakugou is hard on himself. A lot]

I'm just trying to be better. Toward people in general, I guess. But mostly toward you. I know I've still got a lot of shit to work on. But I feel better when I'm with you, too.

That's all I really know right now.

Date: 2018-08-05 08:01 am (UTC)
superchill: (walk away)
From: [personal profile] superchill
Whoa, shit!

[Bakugou moves forward, pulling his hands from Deku's so he can grab his shoulders and keep him upright.

What an idiot. What a complete idiot! This is exactly why Bakugou was mad at him, and exactly why he knew calling him out from work was a good idea. If he'd go out there like this, he'd end up fucking dead!

He wants to yell all of that at Deku, but he doesn't. At least for now.

Instead he stands up and scoops Deku out of the chair so he can carry him and heads for his room.
]

You're getting some sleep, idiot. Whether you like it or not.

Date: 2018-08-05 08:14 am (UTC)
superchill: (side pout)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ He's glad they can table the whole other thing for now, even though he's not glad that Deku nearly just passed out on him. Bakugou is determined to fix this now.

Deku's bedroom... he hasn't been in here since they were practically toddlers. Everything still looks more or less the same, just with less All Might action figures, which Bakugou knows is only the case because Deku probably has them in his current apartment.

He lays Deku down into bed and tugs the covers down, adjusting them.]


Well you're gonna get a lot more now. I'm staying until I gotta go into work tomorrow. I got a slightly later shift so you can sleep longer. Just tell me what I need to do for your mom in the morning and I'll take care of it.

Date: 2018-08-05 08:31 am (UTC)
superchill: (swish)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ Of course he's not getting up. If the dizziness wouldn't have laid him back down then Bakugou would have done it anyway.

He has a feeling Deku will have an easier time sleeping with less of a burden on his mind.]


Okay, good. I can do all that so don't even worry about it.

[And then he'll know what food to stock up on once he sees the dietary requirements. He can make separate food for Deku too. Something that'll last him a while so he won't have to worry about that ether.

He's already nodding when Deku asks if he'll do something for him, before Deku even gets to what it is. When he does, Bakugou scoffs, climbing onto the bed, moving behind Deku.
]

Of course. Where the fuck did you think I would go?

Date: 2018-08-05 08:52 am (UTC)
superchill: (neck kisses)
From: [personal profile] superchill
We'll... both get better sleep like this.

[He admits. Bakugou has been able to sleep, he always has, but sleeping on the couch with Deku felt a lot better for some reason. No, he knows the reason. He's just still trying to fully admit it to himself.

A lot keeps happening when they're together. Tonight was another night full of a lot to think about. But maybe it's all happening because he's starting to let it.
]

Well you're not alone now, got it?

[He remembers Deku's words- that he does show that he cares about him now- and maybe stuff like this is it. Because he does care. More than he would have ever liked to admit, but maybe now... maybe soon he can.

Either way, it shows in his actions and Deku has figured that out by now.

He sets his phone alarm to vibrate and puts the phone near his head, then slides a foot in between Deku's feet and slings an arm around his waist, but he lets Deku get as comfortable as he needs to get.
]

Go to sleep, nerd.

Date: 2018-08-05 09:15 am (UTC)
superchill: (walk away)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ Bakugou twitches a little inside when Deku laces their fingers, but... he lets it happen. No way he's going to pull away from Deku now. Especially since it's not the worst thing in the world.

He won't make it a habit of course, but for now it's alright. ]


Gnight, Deku.

[He snuggles in a little closer and waits for Deku to fall asleep before he closes his eyes and tries to clear his head so he can sleep as well. It's not hard for him either after that and he sleeps all the way through the night until his phone vibrates against his head, early the next morning.

He knows this room, he knows this mop of green hair his nose is pressed into. He knows exactly where he is before he even properly opens his eyes.

His hand slips out of Deku's so he can shut the alarm off and he lifts his head to peek and make sure Deku is still sleeping before he very carefully untangles and gets out of bed so he can start making breakfast and fix up a few other things to eat for Deku when he wakes up.

He checks the notebook and writes his own list down, tucking it away, then gets to cooking and checking all the meds he has to give Inko. When he's done, he goes to her room and knocks on the door.
]

Date: 2018-08-05 10:04 pm (UTC)
superchill: (stalk stalk)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ it's been years since he's seen Deku's mother, but it's not strange seeing her again. She still has the same open and inviting eyes that he remembers from when he was younger, and still sees in Deku's eyes all the time.

She doesn't look entirely surprised to see him either, but he can't quite figure out the look on her face either. It's like she knows somehow. But what does she know? Bakugou can barely figure the situation out himself. He's just here, taking care of Deku- and her.

He doesn't promise her that he'll take care of her son, but it's close enough and he looks a little put out when she thanks him and tells hm what a fine man he's turned into. There's some praise he eats up readily and then there's some that he still isn't quite sure how to deal with. It's embarrassing,

but- it's also a relief that this is how she sees him and not how Bakugou had imagined she'd see him after everything he's done.

He stays with her for a while, helping her with some morning exercises and then tells her he'll be back later tonight. It's not like he's gonna go home after work- well, aside from grabbing some of his things to bring over here. It would probably be easier just to stay, if he's going to be helping out.

He'll have to ask Deku of course, but... after last night's confessions, he doubts it'll be anything but a yes.

Last night's confessions. Shit.

He puts that aside for now (Can he put aside forever??) and gets to cooking up some easy meals before heading off to work.

When Deku comes into the kitchen he'll find it clean, with a note on the counter:

D,

I didn't want to wake you before I left for work, you were fast asleep and drooling all over the place. Had breakfast with your mom and gave her meds. We did some phys. therapy and she seems to be doing pretty well this morning.

Made some food for lunch for both of you for a couple of days. it's on the tops shelf of the fridge, just heat it up- i followed all the dietary restrictions and labeled everything. there's also soup and dumplings from last night, but we can have that for dinner if you want.

I'll be back after work. DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE COME IN, JUST CALL THE AGENCY AND APPROVE THE SHIFT CHANGES AND THEN GET SOME GODDAMN REST YOU IDIOT! YOU BETTER BE SITTING IN FRONT OF THE TV BEING A LAZY LITTLE SHIT BY THE TIME I GET BACK.

-K
]

Date: 2018-08-06 07:04 am (UTC)
superchill: (uch)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ Bakugou has a long day, with a lot to think about.

He tries hard not to think about the personal because he knows that'll only get in the way of his work and he has to be functioning at full capacty, with no distractions.

It's hard this time around, but he's damn determined.

He puts his all into hs work, just like always, but the outcome is a little more violent with a lot more damage. He can't helo but take it out on the villains, the evil-doers. Better than taking it out on anyone else. He doesn't care if he gets reemed, told to take it easy.

He tries better the next time he goes out, and he manages to reel it in a little.

By the end of his shift he's exhausted. Kirishima wants to hang out and he tell him he can't. He has to go do some shit and he's not going to be around as much.

KIrishima starts pestering him about going on a date wth someone? Being wth someone? Bakugou scowl and s ready to punch hm, but Krshma know when to back off by now. after that he makes a quick getaway, because to his apartment to pack up some thinks he might need if he's going to stay at Deku's for a while, then heads over, stocking up on groceries on the way.

He lets himself n with the key and it damn pleased to see Deku lazying about the couch. ]


Hey, you lazy little shit. I'm back.

Date: 2018-08-06 08:03 am (UTC)
superchill: (bandaged)
From: [personal profile] superchill
[ Welcome home. It sounds so normal.

Bakugou supposes this really will be his home for a little while. so it's fine.

HE comes in and takes his shoes off, setting his back down at the door, then saunters into the living room, glad that Deku is just hanging out on the couch, messing aorund with his phone. He looks a lot more rested and put together. That's a really good thing.

He grunts a bit, flopping down on the couch, sinking down int it. ]


Yeah, everything was fine. Got a lot of shit done. What about you? You doin okay?

Date: 2018-08-06 08:15 pm (UTC)
superchill: (get some sleep)
From: [personal profile] superchill
Good. They had every reason to be pissed at you.

[Bakugou looks over at him while still trying to sink deeper into the couch. He's tired and he's pretty sure he can feel the worlds largest bruise spreading on his ass.]

Glad you took care of everything else, though. How's your mom doing?

[He remembers her words very clearly. He never though in a million years that he'd be the one taking care of Deku, but... now that it's happening, it feels right.

He knows they have a lot to talk about still, but he'd like to avoid talking about it for as long as possible. Maybe it's shitty on his part, but hearing all those confessions yesterday- it was a lot. He just hopes it isn't bothering Deku that he basically didn't say anything back.
]

Did you tell them I was here?

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-06 10:25 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-06 11:12 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-07 10:13 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-08 09:54 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-09 01:25 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-09 10:08 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-16 04:45 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-17 04:21 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-17 07:27 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-19 01:54 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-21 02:39 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-24 12:10 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-26 05:26 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-26 06:11 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-26 07:24 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-08-30 01:32 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-09-17 11:12 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-09-22 11:36 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-09-23 05:37 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] superchill - Date: 2018-09-23 06:18 am (UTC) - Expand

Profile

thunderingpeace: (Default)
Izuku Midoriya

January 2020

S M T W T F S
   1234
567891011
121314151617 18
19202122232425
262728293031 

Most Popular Tags

Page Summary

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Aug. 30th, 2025 11:37 pm
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios